tulsa on a thursday

Today we traveled the 2 hour trip to Tulsa to visit a DAN! doctor for Riley. We had a dr. in Dallas but since we have moved up here, it's hard to make it there on a weekday. Plus we always had to wait about 2 hours before we could even see him. Plus plus he always yelled at us for not coming as often.

So, I did some research and found a fabulous doctor in Tulsa who called me from his home to discuss Riley. Brownie point #1. Alan and I had planned to take Riley today and Kylie was going to go home from school with a friend. Early this morning I got a call from friend's mother to say that she was sick. So, Kylie went on the trip with us. She was a doll and the doctor was smitten with her. Brownie point #2.

When we got there, Dr. Taylor wanted to speak to me alone. I had brought Riley's tests that showed high levels of mercury and everything else and Dr. Taylor sat with me and went over the test results and explained things to me about Riley that I had never been told. Brownie point #3. Our old doctor was wonderful but he just didn't have that kind of time to spend with each patient. He did have time to yell at us, though! :(

All in all it was a great visit and I think that we are going to see some wonderful things from Riley through the new supplements and his new even-stricter diet. (ugh!)

On the way home, we came up on an accident on the highway in Tulsa. There was a lot of construction and a girl ran right into the back of an 18-wheeler right in front of her. We were the second car behind her and Alan called 911. It looked like she only broke her leg but you never know. She was screaming in pain and I was worried for the kids to see it. We were stopped beside her for almost 5 minutes and I am really worried and praying for her and her family tonight.

With that being said, I woke up last night with a sharp pain in my upper back. It was hard to breathe and was really hurting. I went to the bathroom and came back and told Alan that I was hurting. Right about that time, I believe that I suffered a panic attack and it was not good. I was really scared and just realized how stressed I have been with life and my business. I mean, yesterday, I stayed on the computer from sun-up 'til sun-down designing a blog, figuring out a website, putting out fires and answering questions. Not to mention that I didn't get to kiss my kids good-night or talk to Alan before he went to sleep. :(

I closed my wait list this morning and stepped away for the day. I appreciate all the business and I LOVE designing but sometimes I just wish I was doing blogs for friends and friends of friends. It was so much easier. It seems like everyday I have someone upset for the wait time which has been out of control lately. Taking a teaching job in the fall is sounding better and better to me.:(

One thing I can always count on are the good friends I have made doing designs. Jenn,  Maggie and Kara- I will design for you any time you need! I appreciate you guys SO much!! I know you saw my post this am and you were so worried about me and sent me the kindest emails. (You should have seen what I wrote before Alan made me think about what I was doing! We'll talk!)

So, that's me being REAL in a nutshell. Sorry if it was TMI! But it is my blog and my feelings. I may look back at this in a week and think that I was such a wimp and hopefully grow from it. But for tonight, I am going to make sure that I spend time with the kids before they go to bed and visit with Alan a little bit. And that is all!